Senior Year.
Stressed like heck.
I must retake the SAT in November, make applications by November 15, make a decision on which college to go to soon after that, and actually graduate. I think I will die.
But more than that, I have been really struggling with what God wants me to do with my life.. now. I think that I sometimes live in the future, worrying about what I'll do then and there and all that... when I should be living out God's will right now...
I dunno about the rest of ya'll, but I learn things the hard way. And God's been teaching me a hard lesson lately - trust. I always say I trust God, but do I really? Do I really give up all the controls in my life and turn them over to God? I think most often I say, "Here God, you can have this part of my life. But I really think I should handle this part, ok?" And God's like, "Um... No Harim, how about you give me that too. I won't hurt you, you know that. Why won't you trust me?" I kinda ignored him and went on doing what I wanted, and ultimately screwed up big time. And I'm trying to fix my mistake now, but God's still been prodding me... saying, "Wait. I will handle this. Will you trust me this time?" And I really want to... I really need to.
