6/09/2011

Summer is almost here!!

I think I've broken my record of posting only once a year ;) It's exam week..... and we've had half days because of exams and all.... the extra time makes me want to do stuff on the internet rather than study :P ;)
Now....... summer is almost here - next Tuesday is the last day of school. Dan dan daaaaaaan!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know how to feel about it...... everyone around me..... they're all so excited. But to be honest, I dread it :P I've never really liked the summer - to me, it's the symbol of good-bye's and tears.... sweating to death, feeling claustrophobic at night because of the heat, having nothing to do...... the only up side to summer for me is the fact that I get to spend time with my family...... *sigh* I'm more of a social person - I like having lots of people around me..... but it always seems to be my friends or family... one at a time. Ohhhh well, such is the way of life :P
I don't know if all of ya'll have heard me say this before, but I absolute loathe the dude who invented the word "good-bye." First off, good-bye's aren't "good." They're absolutely and undoubtably painful and I believe they should be extinct :P I srsly think someone should invent instant transportation one of these days - then u'd be able to see the ppl u wanna see whenever ;)
Hmmmm....... what else is going on with life? Well, I plan on having a lot of hanging out time this weekend.... tomorrow's the Senior Leau :) Then a sleepover with my besties, and then on Saturday is the Youth Group Party!!!!!! It's exciting, but still really sad because it's going to be the last Youth Group of this school year :( :( :( And after that, I'm thinking of going to watch Pirates of the Caribbean 4 with my peeps ;) Fun fun fun!!
I still don't know what I'm doing next year...... and it's killing my brain :P I'm begging God..... but His will is the best..... so I'm trying to be submissive :P Please pray para miiii! :)

6/04/2011

Life = Cupcake

Hey :) Yep, you better believe it, I finally changed my blog settings and even am posting right now ;) It took me a long time to figure out how to change the language settings for some reason ;) Anyways..... my life is like a cupcake right now....... I'm sure some of ya'll have seen my status on FB ;)
I shall elaborate on what I was trying to say.... cupcakes.... have cupcake holders. It keeps the cupcake from crumbling everywhere, making a mess. It's the foundation.... symbolism here ;) The middle, the cupcake itself, let's say it's a chocolate cupcake. It's all dark, filled with holes..... symbolism once again ;) The icing on top.... is white...... bliss :) It has sprinkles and chocolate, little gifts from the baker..... laughter and love.... symbolism :) I like symbolism :)
Life is also....... these word flash through my head: instability..... grasping at straws..... depending...... wondering....... hopelessness....... little sparks of happiness...... hope. I really want to stay in Ankara..... my hopes were so high - I couldn't help it. But things didn't turn out the way I wanted them to... not that I ever thought I could actually stay... I never got to digest it..... but I guess I felt so crushed because...... because I was thinking about how I'd have to say good-bye to everyone.... how hard that would be. Faces that I love flashed through my head..... FB chats of when people were so happy I might be staying....... having to say no....... it was so complicated :P I'm depending on God's provision...... I'm sure whatever happens - whether I leave or stay, God will be with me. He will provide me with the best of the best, and He will be my Rock.... my foundation.
I don't know if any of ya'll have read the book "Guys Are Waffles, Girls Are Spaghetti." I've started reading it.... it's awesome so far :) It talks about how guys' and girls' minds work. If you look at a waffle, you can see that it has several boxes. Guys' minds are like that - not physically, mentally ;) - they have different compartments and sections. They think of one thing at a time. When they're playing a game, they're simply playing a game. When they're happy, they're simply happy. They even have a "nothing" box, in which they literally think of nothing. I found that one really strange :P Girls, on the other hand, have minds like spaghetti. All the individual strands touch each other, making connections, jumping from one thing to another. It's a pretty cool book :)