I shall elaborate on what I was trying to say.... cupcakes.... have cupcake holders. It keeps the cupcake from crumbling everywhere, making a mess. It's the foundation.... symbolism here ;) The middle, the cupcake itself, let's say it's a chocolate cupcake. It's all dark, filled with holes..... symbolism once again ;) The icing on top.... is white...... bliss :) It has sprinkles and chocolate, little gifts from the baker..... laughter and love.... symbolism :) I like symbolism :)
Life is also....... these word flash through my head: instability..... grasping at straws..... depending...... wondering....... hopelessness....... little sparks of happiness...... hope. I really want to stay in Ankara..... my hopes were so high - I couldn't help it. But things didn't turn out the way I wanted them to... not that I ever thought I could actually stay... I never got to digest it..... but I guess I felt so crushed because...... because I was thinking about how I'd have to say good-bye to everyone.... how hard that would be. Faces that I love flashed through my head..... FB chats of when people were so happy I might be staying....... having to say no....... it was so complicated :P I'm depending on God's provision...... I'm sure whatever happens - whether I leave or stay, God will be with me. He will provide me with the best of the best, and He will be my Rock.... my foundation.
I don't know if any of ya'll have read the book "Guys Are Waffles, Girls Are Spaghetti." I've started reading it.... it's awesome so far :) It talks about how guys' and girls' minds work. If you look at a waffle, you can see that it has several boxes. Guys' minds are like that - not physically, mentally ;) - they have different compartments and sections. They think of one thing at a time. When they're playing a game, they're simply playing a game. When they're happy, they're simply happy. They even have a "nothing" box, in which they literally think of nothing. I found that one really strange :P Girls, on the other hand, have minds like spaghetti. All the individual strands touch each other, making connections, jumping from one thing to another. It's a pretty cool book :)
I like your new blog settings :) especially your font :) very cool dude :)
ReplyDeleteoh... and don't give up. God's still there with ya :)