Thanksgiving

up down up down up down.... up.

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Life is seriously like a rollercoaster. You have those really really long ups... tip over the edge and you go tumbling down in a spiral.... dizzy.... then life's normal... cruisin' along... drop.. go up again....

Way too crazy.
But life seems to be... almost perfect. My friends are all alive :] and we laugh about nigahiga vids and just.... it's all so perfect. I hate thinking of Christmas like this, but Christmas is like the half year mark for me... it's like... oh no... good bye's are coming up. Who will I have to say good bye to this year? So many stinkin' teachers are leaving... and many of my good friends.... ayh. I'm trying to be thankful... like the guy Mr. Meyer talked about - who was able to say "Thank you for my stomach cancer." To be able to say thank you to God.. for that to be my first reaction... *sigh* I really want to be like this bus it's so hard when everything I know seems to be slipping through my fingers... trying to hold on by squeezing the gaps shut only makes it all overflow and spill anyway.... I can't do anything about it... but watch it all slip away. Until I am empty and broken.... when I can turn only to God and say, "You are good."